Andrew Flintoff broke down in tears during Ashes thrashing in 2006

Andrew Flintoff was England’s captain when they were whitewashed 5-0 by hosts Australia in the 2006-07 Ashes, a series where they surrendered their grip on the urn before Christmas Getty Images

London: Jan 2, 2012

Former England skipper Andrew Flintoff has told how he broke down in tears during the Ashes thrashing in Australia five years ago and how he wanted to retire at the subsequent World Cup.

The former all-rounder talks about his personal struggles and those of other leading sportsmen, including some of his teammates, in a BBC programme entitled Freddie Flintoff: Hidden Side Of Sport, due to be broadcast on January 11.

Flintoff was England’s captain when they were whitewashed 5-0 by hosts Australia in the 2006-07 Ashes, a series where they surrendered their grip on the urn before Christmas.

“I was having a quiet drink with my dad, Colin, on Christmas Eve 2006 and as we made our way home I started crying my eyes out,” Flintoff said.

“I told him I’d tried my best but that I couldn’t do it any more, I couldn’t keep playing. We talked and, of course, I dusted myself down and carried on.

“But I was never the same player again.”

Flintoff retired from Test cricket in 2009 with a batting average of 31 and bowling mark of 32, figures many experts felt failed to reflect his immense natural talent.

“I was captain of England and financially successful. Yet instead of walking out confidently to face Australia in one of the world’s biggest sporting events, I didn’t want to get out of bed, never mind face people,” he says in the documentary.

It later emerged Flintoff had been drinking so heavily at one point in Australia he was ordered away from a practice session by then-England coach Duncan Fletcher.

Further alcohol-related problems for Flintoff, now 34, followed at the World Cup in the Caribbean where he took a drunken pedalo trip near England’s hotel in St Lucia.

It was an incident that cost Flintoff, now deputy to fit-again skipper Michael Vaughan, the England vice-captaincy.

“The whole time I was on the field and throughout that World Cup all I could think about was that I wanted to retire,” Flintoff said.

“I didn’t understand what was happening to me. I knew when I got back to my room I couldn’t shut off, which is why I started having a drink. It got to the stage where I was probably drinking more than I should.

“All I wanted was for the doctor to tell me what was wrong but no one suggested it was depression.”

Fast bowler Stephen Harmison, a close friend of Flintoff, who at one stage in his career admitted to struggling with ‘homesickness’, said in the programme he too had suffered from depression.

“At one point I was the number one bowler in the world yet I was struggling inside,” explained Harmison who, recalling a worrying moment during a tour of South Africa, added: “I couldn’t breathe and I was hyperventilating.”

Former England batsman Marcus Trescothick’s international career was ended by a stress-related illness that made it all but impossible for the opener to tour even though he continues to play for Somerset.

Last year, Sussex spinner Michael Yardy cited depression when he withdrew from the World Cup in the sub-continent days before England’s quarter-final loss to co-hosts Sri Lanka, although he too has since resumed his county career. (AFP)